Dream

I slumber in my sleep,

An awaken in a land,

A place i have never seen,

Never been to,

Never known,

I awaken in a forest,

Filled with mystical aura,

I am filled with a sensation,

That i have never felt,

To explore in this wondrous place,

Alone and at peace,

It rains and fell so relaxed,

I walk in the rain,

And aimlessly,

Wondering what i shall encounter,

Never knowing the possibilities,

I have changed for the better,

Hope is no longer within me,

It has long left,

Better to be this way,

Then to hope and broken,

Even though i am broken,

What is broken cannot be broken,

But it will be broken even more,

I am content to what has been decided,

The choices that has been made,

What has happen to me,

In the outside world,

Has made me come here,

To fell this feeling.

NO CARE.

Mist!!

A mist has taken form in my path,

I look around me,

The road looks untroubled,

But i know it will be rough,

I walk into the mist,

Not to care what happens,

Never knowing what would happen,

The mist of uncertainty.

Exile

I walk away from this city. Full of people who has many things to gain and have. I leave the city to those who embrace it and enjoy it. I walk down the path where people avoid and wish not to enter. I will stroll into the forest of the unknown and will endure it all alone. I leave the city where my family and friends and the one i care about among its high buildings and society. I will take this journey alone. Nothing to gain and nothing brought with me. I enter with what i have with me now. A sword with no sheath. This sword represent my anger, my soul, my heart, and my mind. This sword will be ruined by the air that i breath and rust with rain that drenches it in moist. I love the light rain that drops onto my body. It heals me but yet it would not help me with my journey. Rain does not come often in this forest. I cut my way through this forest with my sword. Hacking and swinging freely with no remorse. Without a sheath i my sword will diminish and will no longer assist me on my journey. In this forest i am alone. I will endure this alone and with no one to guide or assist me. My burden is for me alone. I will not trouble others for my own mistakes and my own fate. Love is nothing in this forest. My feet has no strength to move but i shall push on to no end. I will walk this path no matter what the challenge i will face. I will be tired and hurt and bleed but i will push on my own. In darkness there is no light to guide me. Yet the light from the moon will guide me to where my path is meant to be. This guide is my instinct that i have to make my choices. Even though it is the wrong choice but i will make a path to my own goal. I will try to do what i must even though i will not gain or get anything of the outcome. My eyes is tired but i force myself to push onwards. My hands no strengh to lift up my sword. I let go and fall to the ground. I face the sky to witness the starless sky. My eyes grow weary and i fall into a deep sleep. As i try to fight the moment to give up and open my eyes i see an aurora. The magnificent aurora which the one for me and i hope, i wish, and i pray that i will have this aurora and this lovely feeling that i feel when i see this magnetic scenery as i fall into a deep sleep and slumber into the dream of painful events and difficult time. And i await the arrival of this being that possesses the powers of the aurora to awaken me from this slumber and take me home where i belong.

Hope!!!

Hoping is overrated. All my life i have been hoping. But now im through hoping. Im just going to try and not fear the outcome. I had confesed what i needed. And today i have an answer. Its not what i was hoping but at least its an answer. I feel nothing anymore. No remorse or pain or anything. Maybe im just used to it by now. I respect her decision. I have nothing else to say. Its the way she is. She fears and feels that way if anything is done. She is so sure of it. But i cant do anything about it. All i can do now is just completely just continue with what im doing. Hide within my shell and hope i have the strength to hold the walls that are closing in. But i know hope is nothing but a vague word. And i know that my shell will thin out and break. And i will forever be broken and not be fixed.

Walls Closing In

Everything that is going on in my life is trembling downwards. I feel so much tension and tired. Everyday i feel like im losing this fight to move on on carry on with this life. My heart is aching so badly and my mind is so tired of thinking and my soul is as if its burned out of fuel to even sustain within me. The walls around me is closing in so fast to enslave me within its power. I can only shield myself by creating a cocoon around myself. It is weaken by the passing second. What is my salvation