Fear = Regret

Fear is the only thing i fear. It's the only thing that will make me have nightmares. It's the only thing that that can keep me awake at night. It's the only thing i can that can make me cry. It's the only thing can make weak. It's the only thing that has an effect on me. And because of that i have regrets. Regrets is the punishment i have now. It clings onto my soul and it will never leave me. And now all i can do is only assume that what would have become of us if i had no fear. I had only assume the worse if i had said those 3 words. But now all i can do is live my life of regret.

To Believe Or Not To Believe

How do you know if someone really loves you?
Is it when they do anything for you?
Is it when they are there for you?
Is it when they you know really well?
Is it when they know when your sad?
When your happy?
When your sick?
Is it when they know your traits?
Is it when they know your flaws?
Is it when they know your darkest secret?
Is it when your comfortable with them?
How do you believe someone that if they really love you?

Mt. Olympus Challenge

To all rock climbers in Malaysia. Bring your families and friends to this competition. Fun activities to join in. Group of 5 participation and individual participation. Get ready to climb to the top.

Actress in a Movie

An actress's parents being bitches. Verbally attacked my mum. Your parents accused my mum of doing something she didn't do. Melayu tolong melayu konon. Your mum doesn't deserve being helped. Work also don't know how to do. Your mum didn't even defend the girl that got scolded because your dad called. Your parents don't even know what you do at night clubs. Karma is going to get you back. Assholes

Jumpstart College Edition

This competition is a sequel from the 1st Jumpstart. This time it would be College Students Bands. So everyone that is still studying get ready to jam out and get known.

ARGH!!!

I have not been well. Having a sore throat and ulcer. Ulcer has been really bothering me a lot. Can't talk that well and can't eat spicy food. Sore throat has like a mind of its own. Cough badly at a certain time and that causes me to have an asthma attack. Damn it. I just wish i can take a knife and just cut my throat out. Put salt on my ulcer and still it's not getting better. Wish i can get well soon.

Controversial Issue

There is this thing that has been in my head for a long time. I have always wondered why is it that transvestites/she males/bapok do not date or go out with pengkid/girls who dress and want to be guys. I have always wondered why is it they have not come out with this idea. And i have no idea why is it that transvestites when they make their profiles they put themselves as females. Get a freaking grip. You are not females, you are males who want to be females. Well I guess as long as your happy then fine. But seriously think about it. Don't make a fool out of yourselves. And take my idea. Bapok and pengkid should date.

Miss

I miss a lot of things in this world. I miss my uncle Angah ho i have not spend time with for a long time. I guess my siblings and my mum too. But what is there i can do when his current wife has made him distant from us. I miss him making music about me. I will always remember the song that he made for me. He even recorded it and played it on radio in cassette. I miss him taking my hands and farting on it. That sandwich he always make. To this day I still remember the smell.

I miss my friend. I know it was also my fault. I should have called and double confirm that i was not coming in for work for some time. I do apologies that i didn't inform properly. But family comes 1st. I have hurt the people i care for. I miss spending time with him and her. Even though she has gone away for studies. But all of them will always be in my heart.

So many things in this world people would not appreciate until they have lost it. This is what my brother Azli has told me years ago. And to this day I still remember what he has told me. And I appreciate what he has advised me. To this day I have many things i have missed and still miss.

Rest in Peace

To my uncle and my aunt. I love both of you so much. Its hard to grasp the fact that both of you are no longer among us. I miss the smiles and the laughter that i am used to hear and see. Since i was a young boy i have experienced both the love of my uncle and my uncle. The sweet smile and laughter of my aunt. The craziness of my uncle and the food that he used to cook. He has always been able to make me smile and laugh. The hardest one to handle this was my mum. But at last she has been able to calm down. All of us has lost 2 loved ones within a year. But they will always be in our minds and hearts. May Allah S.W.T embrace them within his gates and hold them in his arms. Mak Teh and Ami. I love you both with all my heart. We all do. Al-Fatihah.